SHOCK, HORROR

Dave had a couple of nasty shocks from his defibulator (not sure of the spelling, will check later) on Friday. Since then he has been almost like a zombie. He is in panic mode and has been in bed. Nobody told us at the hospital when it was fitted that this was likely to happen all we got was a pamphlet in French which we have since translated. It looks to me as though he shouldnt really be driving which makes life almost impossible as the main shops are about 4 miles away and the main city a lot further. Of course, because of my eyes I cant drive either so the situation, excuse my French is SHIT. Thank goodness for blogs at least you can say what you feel without anybody too close to you knowing. At the moment with this stress situation going on he doesnt want me out of his sight, for example I have been stuck on a chair outside the back door today becauses I dare not even move a little way down the garden in case he shouts for me. This can not go on, I think I said before that not being able to drive was like being in an open prison but this situation is closing the open prison doors. I am convinced that he is having panic attacks which may well be causing the increase in heart rate, which in turn is causing the defib to shock him, which is causing further trauma and panic. It is difficult to explain this in French even although the specialists here do speak some English.

A good friend in the village, Debbie the aussie, asked me out on Wednesday but I cant think about going, it is difficult even to do the shopping as there are limited supplies in the village and I have to leave the house in order to shop.

Tomorrow we will have to see the doctor and something will have to be done but I do hope that this is not the end of his driving days because if it is we might as well jump off the nearest bridge. If there is anybody out there who can talk to Him upstairs, ask Him to do us a favour because we really need it at the moment.

Sorry to be a crashing bore, but I just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you Diary!!!!